FOUR
LOVE POEMS FOR SANGYE
AND
A POEM FOR KAITLIN & HANNAH
1/ 50 DESIGNS TO
MURDER MAGIC *
(written on
meeting Sangye)
Can
you say she took your breath away
Yes, I
can say that
But
you talked on to her
And that
Required
Breath
Can
you say
She
was beautiful
Yes, I
can say that
Her hair especially was beautiful
And her serious
Eyes
But she was also
Exceptionally kind
She
listened when you spoke
Yes, and laughed
When I said
Something amusing
Yet
her laughter seemed almost
Reluctant
As if she couldn’t quite help herself
As if
something came from within
(As
something came from within me)
There
was no way on earth we could be lovers
As I
left she said, “It was wonderful to meet you”
I
thanked her for being so considerate
Her hair
moved often
As she moved
* title from a collection by Antonin Artaud
*
2/
Sonnet 69: Perhaps Not To Be Is To Be Without Your Being
by Pablo Neruda
dedicated by Sangye
(aged 33) “to Jack, my love”
Perhaps not to be is to be without your being,
without your going, that cuts noon light
like a blue flower, without your passing
later through fog and stones,
without the torch you lift in your hand
that others may not see as golden,
that perhaps no one believed blossomed
the glowing origin of the rose,
that others may not see as golden,
that perhaps no one believed blossomed
the glowing origin of the rose,
without, in the end, your being, your coming
suddenly, inspiringly, to know my life,
blaze of the rose-tree, wheat of the breeze:
suddenly, inspiringly, to know my life,
blaze of the rose-tree, wheat of the breeze:
and it follows that I am, because you are:
it follows from ‘you are’, that I am, and we:
and, because of love, you will, I will,
We will, come to be.
it follows from ‘you are’, that I am, and we:
and, because of love, you will, I will,
We will, come to be.
1959
(translated by A.S. Kline)
Always,
Sangye
Soneto
LXIX
Tal vea
no ser es ser sin que tú seas,
sin que
vayas cortando el mediodía
como una
flor azul, sin que camines
más
tarde por la niebla y los ladrillos,
sin esa
luz que llevas en la mano
que tal
vez otros no verán dorada,
que tal
vea nadie supo que crecía
como el
origen rojo de la rosa,
sin que
seas, en fin, sin que vinieras
brusca,
incitante, a conocer mi vida,
ráfaga
de fosal, trigo del viento,
y desde
entonces soy porque tú eres,
y desde
entonces eres, soy y somos,
y por
amor sere, serás, seremos.
…
Jack’s answer (Jack’s age: 77):
Suddenly you are eligible for death
Suddenly the card that applies to everyone else
Appears in your deck
Suddenly the people around you vanish
In a round that goes from funeral to funeral
Cremation to cremation
Suddenly the “infinity” of time
Closes
And this familiar, casual, daily, habitual world
Is under threat
Suddenly the word “not”
Comes into focus
“Perhaps not to be is to be without your being,
without your going, that cuts noon light
like a blue flower”—
without your going, that cuts noon light
like a blue flower”—
Time spins
As Neruda knew
Like a blue flower.
Its impossible, possible blossoming
Is a gift for which there is no word
But Love
*
3/ LUNA PLENA
O mOOn
O luna
plena
O bright
I
in the sky
O full
O fOOl’s
mOOn
O
luna
O
Beauty
O
pleine
O
claire
de lune
i mOan
in your light,
rOund
O
for Sangye
*
4.
play with my
hair
play with my hair
night comes
near
night comes near
the deep air
the deep air
romantic
strains
romantic strains
open my
heart
open my heart
bring me near
bring me near
to fear and
desire
to fear and desire
prayer has no
efficacy
prayer has no efficacy
Light
Light
opens me
opens
me
love
love
love
bends to the
dance
bends to the dance
Kaitlin
& Hannah
Hannah
& Kaitlin
Had an
adventure
In a
town called Childhood
Hannah
saw a bird
And
Kaitlin saw a bird
But the
bird said Au contraire
I’m not
a bird I’m really a free verse poet
A free
verse poet
Said
Kaitlin
I’ve
never heard of such of thing
Nonetheless,
said the bird,
That’s
what I am
Hannah
said, Will you favor us
With one
of your verses
Certainly,
said the bird
CHIRP
CHIRP CHIRP CHIRP CHIRP CHIRP CHIRP
Pretty
good, hah?
Well,
said Kaitlin,
I would
like it better if I understood it
It’s
poetry
Said the
bird
You’re
not supposed to understand it
Hmmmm,
said Hannah
I don’t
think you’re
A very
good
Free
verse poet
Neither
do I, said Kaitlin
You’re
right, said the bird
It isn’t
free verse at all:
I charge
Fifteen
cents, please.
Hmph,
said Hannah
And
Hmph, said Kaitlin
And they
didn’t give him any money
But went
home
And
wrote a free verse poem