Seesaw
The sky leans over the water and rides the meaning
of the waves. The windows are splattered with rain. An angel of the morning
throbs with apprehension. I continue my research on the harmonica. The silk of
listening necessitates the sparkle of words. No thought is so obscure that it
doesn’t in some fashion flirt with description. My sad green desire swarms with
expectation. How many sounds fill a single day? One of them is the sound of a
cat eating, smacking little gobs of wet food chicken or turkey against his
upper palate. There is warmth in prayer. The day is without precedent. It’s
time to gather up all the shadows and make something blaze into reality.
Something like thread, or need, or a pain suckling the headlight of a jaguar for
the milk of paradise. Isn’t that why people go fishing? There’s a treasure in
your eyes called seeing. Can you see it? Can you see seeing? Seeing is easily
seen through. Sewing is different. Sewing is more like seesaws. I saw myself
see a seesaw and sagged into prophecy with the burden of my testament. Life is
often sticky this way. Sometimes I just ramble on for hours saying whatever
comes into my head. It’s a lot like swimming. I have to keep moving to stay
afloat. Meander. It’s what rivers do. Ripple and riddle and rupture into
resplendent aqua. The light is swollen with color. There is so much more to a
chair than a chair. Is that a door in your head or just an epiphany? There is
so much more that I would like to show you. But the words don’t exist. They
smolder like mirrors at the bottom of a swamp. Infinity goes around in a brass
hat going on and on about language and how it smells of consciousness and
weighs as much as a mathematical logic teased into eighty three eels and a
football. The hotel lobby crawls with meat. The air is
warm. The incongruities are raw and the grapes are delicious. What more can be
said? When it comes to a seesaw there is up and there is down and up and down
are interchangeable. What does not exist exists in its non-existence. And that,
my friend, is a suitcase. Let’s pack it with whistling and go. Travel the
highways make fun of the law. Make memories out of pins. Mythologies out of
straw.
Reality
Is Hard to Describe with Bicycles
Reality is hard to describe with bicycles. But why
even try? There’s so much of it around. There’s as much reality as there are
people. Everybody’s reality is unique to them. But doesn’t that sound glib? I
mean, we have to agree on some things, or there wouldn’t be any reality at all.
There’d be nothing but sloppy solipsistic anarchy. Crazy people. Morning would
arrive every morning in a sweat. You’d never know what to expect. Maybe that’s
why some people need jobs. It helps to structure the day. Sometimes I like to
run water over a fork. Hold it under the kitchen faucet. It fascinates me. I
see a little reality happening there. The reality of water. The reality of a
fork. Stainless steel. Tines. And then along comes a religion and it all
unravels and becomes a fantasy again. Darkness at the break of noon. Some religions are helpful. They’re full of
singing and glories and deliverance. Fat men in sleighs. Reindeer. Angels.
Peculiar attitudes toward money. Me, I believe in the religion of incongruity.
Things that don’t fit. Or look like they don’t fit and then you discover holy
cow they do fit. If you look hard enough you can always find relations between
things. For instance if I imitate a cardboard box it isn’t long before someone
comes along and tries to put something into me. An extension cord or
sweatshirt. Can I do a metaphor for you? Personality is eye spice. Writing is
propagation. Reality is a hatband. Or schnauzer. I don’t know. Let reality be reality, said Lao Tzu. Let things flow
naturally forward in whatever way they like. Right now nothing is flowing,
except my mind. My hands. My wife’s hand as she draws a wolf. The cat as he
stares at the floor. Ok, that’s not flowing, I know, but his form is flowing,
the form of the cat is flowing, trust me, it’s flowing. Like I said. Reality is
hard to describe with bicycles. So why not use hands? Cats? Metaphors? Asian
philosophers? Western philosophers? Hungry philosophers? Any kind of
philosopher you can find that isn’t drunk or horny. Desire can skew one’s sense
of wisdom. That which is wise and balanced and sensible and sane. Or what? Get
on a bicycle and go for a ride. That’s what.
Wonderful. That's an understatement. This gives me relief from re-running the lyrics to Desolation Row endlessly in my head.
ReplyDeleteOn John's behalf, thank you and thank you for reading Five Willows.
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